Sometimes I like to imagine what it would be like to have a film score
playing in the background of my major life events. If this sounds a
little crazy, think about it, we pretty much already do.
It’s the nursery rhyme your Mum sang to you before bed, your graduating
class song, and the song playing during your father/daughter dance at
your wedding. Each song is like a mini film score adding more emotion
and meaning in the moments of our lives. So when we hear these songs
again, in a different time in our lives, we can be thrown back into that
particular moment, flooded with those same emotions and feelings, sort
of like a flashback.
After reading the Gospel, I had one of these film score, flashback
moments. The song Feel Again by OneRepublic popped right into my mind.
It’s uncanny how the lyrics of the song fit perfectly as a film score
for this encounter with the resurrected Jesus.
To understand why this song fits with the story, let’s start at the
beginning of the journey where two disciples of Jesus are on their way
to the village Emmaus. They appear to be downtrodden over which we learn
is the crucifixion of Jesus. These disciples were most likely Jewish,
which means their hope of Jesus being the messiah fell apart, when he
died on the cross. So as they’re walking, suddenly a man, who they don’t
recognize, joins them on their journey.
Recreate the scene in your head. Imagine how the disciples are feeling.
Jesus, their friend, just died. Whom they think they won’t ever see
again. Their hope for him being the messiah was nixed, so now what are
they supposed to do. And now in the background imagine the song Feel
Again play as the film score in the moment, and these are the lyrics,
“It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face
I've been everywhere and back trying to replace
Everything that I had 'til my feet went numb
Praying like a fool that's been on the run”
And the scene continues, the travelers talk with the “stranger” about
the miracles Jesus performed. They talk about their hope that he was the
messiah, and yet they seem reluctant about the idea. Then the
“stranger” begins to sort of chastise them for not listening and not
believing in the words of the prophets who came before Jesus. And the
film score continues,
“Heart's still beating but it's not working
It's like a million dollar phone that you just can't ring
I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing, my heart is numb”
We are in a new scene, the travelers have made it to the village. They
invite the stranger to stay and eat with them. And as they sit there,
the “stranger” takes the bread, blesses it, and breaks it. Here is the
moment the travelers realize, who they had been walking with this entire
time, “Their eyes were open, and they recognized him”. It’s like one
of those flashback moments I talked about earlier, and now the film
score breaks into the songs’ chorus,
“But with you, I feel again, I was a lonely soul, but that’s the old me”.
The travelers feel again. Through their witnessing of Jesus breaking the
bread, they remember the teachings of Jesus, and they are changed. The
changed from skeptical travelers into energetic disciples, they are
ecstatic to spread the word of the resurrection of Jesus. So of course,
they immediately run off to tell the other disciples of the good news.
Unlike those travelers, this is where I come up short. Our eyes are
opened, we know the teaching of Jesus, but I don’t always take action.
When life gets busy, complicated, and I feel like I am at the end of my
rope, it’s more and more difficult to practice what Jesus preached.
Is there a moment, like the travelers had, which reminds me to keep
serving and keep loving others even when I am at my lowest? It’s the
same moment when the travelers’ eyes were opened, in the breaking of the
bread. When we come to together for worship, we represent that very
moment, during the Eucharist, at the altar, in the Breaking of the
Bread.
Even if it is just for a moment, we are connected back to those early
Christians. Just like them, our eyes are opened and we can be
rejuvenated with the thought of Jesus and his teachings. Like the
travelers, we are changed, and we are reminded to go out and follow
Jesus’ commandments to love and serve others. And it does not matter how
we feel called to serve, as long as we do it. Because we know about
the resurrection, we are called to serve and love others, so we can
reflect the love of God.
It’s the end of the gospel reading as well as the end of the film score.
I imagine the disciples full of excitement, running to tell the other
disciples the good news, and in the background the end of the song
plays. But before I say the last line, this film score not only
pertains to those travelers, but in our own lives. Perhaps it can throw
us back, remind us that we are not who we once were, and that we feel
again.
So as the credits begin to scroll the end of the song goes,
“I'm feeling better ever since you’ve known me, A little wiser now from
what you've shown me, I feel again, I was a lonely soul but that’s the
old me”
Below is a recording of the song, enjoy!
